DON'T HATE

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 18:49:58 GMT

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 13:52:50 GMT

Well last night was in the shitter for me. I cryed continueously, i know thats odd, i couldn't help it though. But yeah i'm better i guess today. Still really sad abou tht ewhole thing but theres nothing i can do abou tit really. Well i hope other peopls have a good day, i'll try but i don't think it will happen.

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 03:47:44 GMT

Well i was cruched tonight, i think i had my hope up too much. Tonight was what they call bids, and run-outs for sororities. I was really excited about it, maybe too excited, thats why i was soo crushed why no one wanted me. I had the basic 'good' cry, and then came to the conclution that no one liked me and thought i was a bad person. I guess i just wanted to know why no one wanted me. Well Bri liked me :) (thanks!). But yeah my night was a BIG downer. I got my hopes crushed.
So i've learned that on should not get too excited about something, if you know that there is a big possibility that no one really likes, because you'll just get hurt...then you'll want to drink alot. Well good by, have a good night, i know mines not off to a good start.

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 18:47:38 GMT

So i know it's been awhile since i've even loged on to this thing here, but i keep forgetting my password and well yeah thats pretty much it.
I'm at home now :( boo for me. Summer sucks except for when Mike came down for the weekend. I'm working alot and i'm getting fed up with my family, but what else is new.
Oh, i know in two days i get to go back to alma and see Mike. YAY! I mis him alot...alot alot.
Well i have to go because i need to shower for work.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:24:12 GMT

Yesterday as wel all know it was Valentine Day, or as i went around calling it "Very Pink and Red Day".
My day was very nice it started of waking up and going to class, then when i got back to my dorm there were valentines sitting on my desk. The same type of valentines that you pass out in elementary school, where passed out by some people in our quad.
I open up the presents that my mom sent me via mail, to find a fuzzy/feathery bird pen (allsion received one as well from my mom) and perfume. I don't know if she was trying to tell me i smell.?.?.
I went over to mikes later that day and there was a long stem rose and a white envelope sitting on the table. I didn't see it a first and passed right by it, Mike then told me to go and lok on the table...lol. My bad! In th eenvelop was dinner for two at Embers. YAY, we get to eat. He said that we have to dress up and some time next week will go out. :)

My day wasn't all that bad, it was definatly a lot brighter then the day before.

I'm going home today to help get things ready for my grandfathers funeral and viewing. :(

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 01:42:10 GMT

my grandpa passed away today at 5:45

i didn't even get to say goodbye

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 21:10:39 GMT

At 10:22 this morning i got the worst news i think i could have ever imagined...well maybe not the worst, but then again do we really know what "the worst" is?

Apparently my grandfather is not doing so well, thats an understatment. My grandfather wasn't doing well last year, and now well he is non-respondent. I can't picture him leaving let alone do i want him gone. He was not only a grandpa, but also a father to me. If i did something wrong he was there to help me out and to yell at me, not my "dad". My dad wasn't around at all.

When my mother went to the hospital the other day, when they first brought him in apparently he was crying because he had hated how my "father" had treated our family. He mentioned a while back that he wants my dad out of the picture before he died, though that hasn't yet happened. Then he told my mom how he hates my dad, my grandpa uually never says 'hates'. He said he hates how my father helped cause my heart problem, and how i'm too young to have to deal with this.

When my mom called this morning she was in tears. I asked her is i should come home but she told me she didn't want me to see my grandpa/father like this. She said he wouldn't want my brother or I to see this.

All i can think about was the last time i went and visited him when i was home. How we went to the supper market and how we spent hours standing in line at the medicine store trying to get his meds. after the last hospital visit.

I'm not ready to let him go. I wanted him to see my graduate from college, and if i happened to ever get married (i know its a long shot) i told him i wanted him to walk me down the long lane that the girl in the poofy dress has to walk down.

My mom warned me that he probably won't make it past friday.

I just hope he knows how much he means to me, and how much i do love him.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 18:13:16 GMT

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>People in Michigan go swimming in the Lakes.
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>North Carolinians try to turn on the heat.
>People in Michigan plant gardens.
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>Californians shiver uncontrollably.
>People in Michigan sunbathe.
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>Italian & English cars won't start.
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>Distilled water freezes.
>Lake Superior's water gets thicker.
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>Floridians don coats, thermal underwear, gloves and woolly hats.
>People in Michigan throw on a flannel shirt.
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>Philadelphia landlords finally turn up the heat.
>People in Michigan have the last cookout before it gets cold.
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>People in Miami all die.
>Michiganders lick the flagpole.
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>Californians fly away to Mexico.
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>People in Michigan start saying, "Cold 'nuff for ya?"
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>Hell freezes over.
>The Lions win the Super Bowl!

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 18:09:00 GMT

PISTONS WON LAST NIGHT AGAINST L.A. LAKERS.....YAY

What now Oak, you fucking though your team was gunna win, babababull SHIT.
Score: 102-93...making the Pistons 37-5

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 22:40:47 GMT

FUCK i'm going crazy, i don't think i can wait...

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 01:57:18 GMT

Well back from break, new classes and well homework. My break was great, I got to celebrate christmas with Mike and the Pistons vs. Spurs. I had a blast and was glade i could get him and his whole family tickets. Then fro New Years i spent that as well with him and his family, in Chicago. The city is beautiful. I had a blast. Then i hung out alot with Mari, she's like a sister to me at home, i greatly appreciate everything shes done for me in the past.

So not i'm back at school, hanging out with my sister allsion (my roommate) and, yeah i know, Mike.

Any one wants to talk hit me back, you know the number. later

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 20:27:40 GMT

Hey people, It's exam week

HAPPY F.uck I. N.ever A.ctually L.earned S.hit WEEK!

I'm done now, but there are people that are still in hell.

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 15:05:17 GMT

You made a clean getaway.
No one toys with you...& you won't deal with it.
Everything's still in tact & you don't even
have a scratch. WELL DONE! I'm impressed...

Will you survive a HORROR MOVIE??
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Go ME. TAKE THAT YOU SON OF A BITCH!

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 14:59:24 GMT

Well, i'm going to have to admit. Tuesday was the best birthday i ever had. I don't think it could have gotten any better. After all the classes. My boyfriend took me out and just spending the time with him on the brithday was great. My roommate made me a really sweet card, telling me what a sister means to her, wishing me a happy b-day. I really enjoyed it all. Normaly i don't like my birthday, but this year was different. :) Thanx

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 19:42:03 GMT

Since no one ever ready this shit that i type up here...what the hell, why not...lol

Happy Birthday to ME!

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 17:55:14 GMT

I went to the doctors after Mike made me promise to him I'd go. He said it was because he cared about me and didn't want to see anything happen to me. SO i told him I'd go. The doctor poked around my ribs were i told him the pain was coming from. He proceeded in listening to my heart, and said my heart was strong and the reason i was feeling the sharp pains in my heart was because i had:

Costochondritis, also known as Tietze Syndrome, is the inflammation of the cartilage where the ribs attach to the breastbone (sternum).

(lol, i googled it)

The cause of the pain was because my rib cage, the cartilage part of it, was pressing into my heart when i inhaled. There‘s nothing he said they can do about it and that this may last many years. He told me when ever i feel the pain the only thing that i can take to help if is the over the counter drugs...a.k.a. for me alive.

I also got him to test my heart, which was free. They hooked my up to a machine that monitored my heart. He said my heart is healthy and strong, and that i am in really good shape considering the fact that i have Costochondritis.

So I‘mot going to Die any time soon...lol But thats the latest mom.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 17:30:38 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARI FREDA.....

hope your day is gooooing GREAT. Luv ya like a sis

later

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 01:46:03 GMT

Things are much better now, i was just having one of them days. I realized that why should i worry about my problems, thinking that they were hard to overcome, when there are people out there who can make my issues look like a fly on the wall. So why should i complain for something that is only a small problem compared to someone with much bigger ones. There are people that have a reason to feel the way i did and i shouldn't have felt that way. If that makes any since.

But today is much better, i got home and its weird i can honestly feel like shit, but once i see Mike. I don't know a smile forms on my face and honestly its like whatever typ of shit i had gone through that day doesn't matter at that moment.

Mom called to day and the Dip shit is coming up i guess sometime this week to deliver something to me, and i'm honestl scared for my life. I don't think i could see him. I have to act like i really like him when he comes, and he puts on a face for all my friends and who ever else cares to listen. HE doesn't want to look like a fucking jack ass in front of people that might judge him, or something of that sort. ERRRRR! I just don't know wat i'm gunna do, i havn't got an e-mail from him and i didn't give him my cell phone number. So i don't know when hes coming up or i hes coming up, i mean if he doesn't i won't mind at all...lol. Not one bit.

But thats all the new shit i have.
Ponder this: * Why do they disinfect lethal injections? *

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 05:47:50 GMT

Well i have to be up for band in 5 hrs. i just got back from going home, to see my grandpa. HEs dooing better, cranky like usual. Which is a ood thing if you didn't know. But here i am in m dorm, my roommates gone out, which is great cause she doesn't go out enough and have fun. Then theres me, I'm sitting here after finding out news that i never thought i'd hear in a life time. I'm crying, why i'm crying is beyond me. I mean i'm actually crying...
okay check my roomamte just walked in, drunk. Shes never drank before and i feel so bad, i can't take it. A girl from down the hall is actually here helping her out. I have to wake up now in 4 and a half hours. I'm guuna pull an all nighter, just omake sure she doesn't hurt herself or vomit in her sleep, cause i don't want anything to hapen to her.
Well i guess my story doesn't matter, theres so much more to the story, of the worst trip home that i had so far. IF only there was time to get if off my chest. But i need to go check my roommate...bye

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 21:28:24 GMT

Allison has this hanging on our door...

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Wait for the guy who pursues you,
who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when youre in sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around the waist.
The one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.

aaawwwwwww.............

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 18:21:15 GMT

I went home for the weekend, and brought Mike home with me. I hope he had a good time, for al that i know he could have been bored out of his mind...lol And is just telling me he had fun because he thought it would hurt my feelings. lol Mabe i'm just over thinking this all..oh well

I got a betta fish while i was back home. yay. thanx Mari for not wanting your fish and giving it to me. My roommate and I named him Floater, well actually most of the credit goes to Allison...lol We like him alot already.

We went to Kathleen's party saterdya night. Mike actually fit in well from what i heard. I havn't seen those people in well over a month. Dru was there and hes the guy who tried to help me jump my car when it wouldn't start at work one day. Hes a really funny guy. And whda thunk that Mari gets loopy after 5 jello shots...lol (luv yaz)

All in all i had a great weekend. Mom actually let mike stay with us the whole weekend, which was sorta surprising, cause she wouldnt ever think of saying 'yes' to something like that for my other boyfriends. But Mike is different than all of the others. Its a good different too. The home cooked dinner was wicked awsome. She made noodles and sausages. mmmmmmm....its one of my fav. meals. I think to be honest, she misses me..hehe

My weekend was great, beside the rain on the drive home. But i'm back, and safe, so thats all that matters.

later

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:13:28 GMT

Ooh I'm so glad you came
Cause you are the cutest thang
Beauty should be your name
And I should be your lady, baby
Tell me where you been all my life
Cause your so sexy and I
Like to make you the one
Baby heres my number

(Chorus)
Call me up
Hotline
I got some conversation
I can be your operator
Baby you should call me later
Because you are so fine
I hope that your not playin
Cause im lovin wat ur sayin
Baby dontcha keep me waitin
Call me up hotline
You are so fine (yeaa)
Your so fine
I can be ur operator
Call me up
Hotline
You are so fine
Your so fine
Dontcha keep me waitin call me up

Listen, dont tell me nething (uh uh)
Keep it real wit me (uh huh)
You say ur single and
Your ready to mingle
Your sayin the rite things baby
Man i want u so bad
Gotta make u my man
Ur wat i need in my life
Baby theres no time to waste
I said all i wana say
You kno that im feelin you
I kno that ur feelin me
Page me now dont wanna stop
Anything for you and i
Be there when u need me baby Anytime u need me

(Chorus)

All my single folks we gonna get down
Take it to the floor
Right now take it to the floor
All the ones in love we gon get down
Take it to the floor
Right now take it to the floor

(Chorus)

Call me up
Thats wassup
Call me up
Mm mm call me up

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 01:52:36 GMT

Okay you want a quick summary of whats gong on with me right now...
Heres the low down-
-met this guy
-like this guy
-guy ends up likeing me(who'da thunk)
-marching band practice
-marching band practice
-guy asks me out
-yay
-roommates wicked cool
-make fool of my self dancing in hall way with quade(lol)
-going out with guy
-really like guy
-mom likes guy(congrats)
-band practice
-make many new friends
-dislike some people already(ops)
-school starts
-spending time with guy
-spending time with guy everyday
-school
-band
-guys takes me out(yeah me, and we go out)
-roommate and i mistaken for sisters(4 times)
-mari comes up for first game
-football game
-dress up in kilt
-mom and brother come see game
-did i mention i really like this guy?
-school(classes are great)
-band
-softball
-havn't talked to dad yet(yay)
-roommate and i are goofy
-see guy every day(yay)
-school
-band
-school
-dancing with girls in quad..(lol)

So that pretty much sums it all up in a nut shell!
If you have any questions about the above information, if i missed something at all, do tell me...lol

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 02:57:48 GMT

Catch me I'm falling...

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 01:34:07 GMT

IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I WAS THINKING ABOUT NOW...

you can try to guess but i don't think you'd be right.