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| 09:49am 03/10/2006 |
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Well last night was in the shitter for me. I cryed continueously, i know thats odd, i couldn't help it though. But yeah i'm better i guess today. Still really sad abou tht ewhole thing but theres nothing i can do abou tit really. Well i hope other peopls have a good day, i'll try but i don't think it will happen. |
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| 11:41pm 02/10/2006 |
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Well i was cruched tonight, i think i had my hope up too much. Tonight was what they call bids, and run-outs for sororities. I was really excited about it, maybe too excited, thats why i was soo crushed why no one wanted me. I had the basic 'good' cry, and then came to the conclution that no one liked me and thought i was a bad person. I guess i just wanted to know why no one wanted me. Well Bri liked me :) (thanks!). But yeah my night was a BIG downer. I got my hopes crushed.
So i've learned that on should not get too excited about something, if you know that there is a big possibility that no one really likes, because you'll just get hurt...then you'll want to drink alot. Well good by, have a good night, i know mines not off to a good start. |
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| 02:43pm 20/06/2006 |
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So i know it's been awhile since i've even loged on to this thing here, but i keep forgetting my password and well yeah thats pretty much it.
I'm at home now :( boo for me. Summer sucks except for when Mike came down for the weekend. I'm working alot and i'm getting fed up with my family, but what else is new.
Oh, i know in two days i get to go back to alma and see Mike. YAY! I mis him alot...alot alot.
Well i have to go because i need to shower for work. |
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| 02:18pm 15/02/2006 |
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Yesterday as wel all know it was Valentine Day, or as i went around calling it "Very Pink and Red Day".
My day was very nice it started of waking up and going to class, then when i got back to my dorm there were valentines sitting on my desk. The same type of valentines that you pass out in elementary school, where passed out by some people in our quad.
I open up the presents that my mom sent me via mail, to find a fuzzy/feathery bird pen (allsion received one as well from my mom) and perfume. I don't know if she was trying to tell me i smell.?.?.
I went over to mikes later that day and there was a long stem rose and a white envelope sitting on the table. I didn't see it a first and passed right by it, Mike then told me to go and lok on the table...lol. My bad! In th eenvelop was dinner for two at Embers. YAY, we get to eat. He said that we have to dress up and some time next week will go out. :)
My day wasn't all that bad, it was definatly a lot brighter then the day before.
I'm going home today to help get things ready for my grandfathers funeral and viewing. :( |
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| 08:41pm 13/02/2006 |
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my grandpa passed away today at 5:45
i didn't even get to say goodbye |
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| 03:57pm 08/02/2006 |
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At 10:22 this morning i got the worst news i think i could have ever imagined...well maybe not the worst, but then again do we really know what "the worst" is?
Apparently my grandfather is not doing so well, thats an understatment. My grandfather wasn't doing well last year, and now well he is non-respondent. I can't picture him leaving let alone do i want him gone. He was not only a grandpa, but also a father to me. If i did something wrong he was there to help me out and to yell at me, not my "dad". My dad wasn't around at all.
When my mother went to the hospital the other day, when they first brought him in apparently he was crying because he had hated how my "father" had treated our family. He mentioned a while back that he wants my dad out of the picture before he died, though that hasn't yet happened. Then he told my mom how he hates my dad, my grandpa uually never says 'hates'. He said he hates how my father helped cause my heart problem, and how i'm too young to have to deal with this.
When my mom called this morning she was in tears. I asked her is i should come home but she told me she didn't want me to see my grandpa/father like this. She said he wouldn't want my brother or I to see this.
All i can think about was the last time i went and visited him when i was home. How we went to the supper market and how we spent hours standing in line at the medicine store trying to get his meds. after the last hospital visit.
I'm not ready to let him go. I wanted him to see my graduate from college, and if i happened to ever get married (i know its a long shot) i told him i wanted him to walk me down the long lane that the girl in the poofy dress has to walk down.
My mom warned me that he probably won't make it past friday.
I just hope he knows how much he means to me, and how much i do love him. |
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| 10:12am 30/01/2006 |
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>Weather Determines Activity
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>+70ƒF (21ƒC) and above
>Texans turn on the heat and unpack the thermal underwear.
>People in Michigan go swimming in the Lakes.
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>+60ƒF (16ƒC)
>North Carolinians try to turn on the heat.
>People in Michigan plant gardens.
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>+50ƒF (10ƒC)
>Californians shiver uncontrollably.
>People in Michigan sunbathe.
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>+40ƒF (4ƒC)
>Italian & English cars won't start.
>People in Michigan drive with the windows down.
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>+32ƒF (0ƒC)
>Distilled water freezes.
>Lake Superior's water gets thicker.
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>+20ƒF (-7ƒC)
>Floridians don coats, thermal underwear, gloves and woolly hats.
>People in Michigan throw on a flannel shirt.
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>+10ƒF (-12ƒC)
>Philadelphia landlords finally turn up the heat.
>People in Michigan have the last cookout before it gets cold.
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>0ƒF (-18ƒC)
>People in Miami all die.
>Michiganders lick the flagpole.
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>-20ƒF (-29ƒC)
>Californians fly away to Mexico.
>People in Michigan get out their winter coats.
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>-40ƒF (-40ƒC)
>Hollywood disintegrates.
>The Girl Scouts in Michigan are selling cookies door
>to door.
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>-60ƒF (-51ƒC)
>Polar bears begin to evacuate the Arctic.
>Michigan Boy Scouts postpone "Winter Survival" classes until it gets cold
>enough.
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>-80ƒF (-62ƒC)
>Mt. St. Helens freezes.
>People in Michigan rent some videos.
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>-100ƒF (-73ƒC)
>Santa Claus abandons the North Pole.
>Michiganders get frustrated because they can't thaw the keg.
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>-297ƒF (-183ƒC)
>Microbial life no longer survives on dairy products.
>Cows in Michigan complain about farmers with cold hands.
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>-460ƒF (-273ƒC)
>ALL atomic motion stops (absolute zero in the Kelvin scale).
>People in Michigan start saying, "Cold 'nuff for ya?"
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>Hell freezes over.
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| 10:06am 30/01/2006 |
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PISTONS WON LAST NIGHT AGAINST L.A. LAKERS.....YAY
What now Oak, you fucking though your team was gunna win, babababull SHIT.
Score: 102-93...making the Pistons 37-5 |
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| 05:40am 29/01/2006 |
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FUCK i'm going crazy, i don't think i can wait... |
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| 08:38am 12/01/2006 |
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Well back from break, new classes and well homework. My break was great, I got to celebrate christmas with Mike and the Pistons vs. Spurs. I had a blast and was glade i could get him and his whole family tickets. Then fro New Years i spent that as well with him and his family, in Chicago. The city is beautiful. I had a blast. Then i hung out alot with Mari, she's like a sister to me at home, i greatly appreciate everything shes done for me in the past.
So not i'm back at school, hanging out with my sister allsion (my roommate) and, yeah i know, Mike.
Any one wants to talk hit me back, you know the number. later |
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| 03:31pm 15/12/2005 |
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Hey people, It's exam week
HAPPY F.uck I. N.ever A.ctually L.earned S.hit WEEK!
I'm done now, but there are people that are still in hell. |
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| 10:09am 04/11/2005 |
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You made a clean getaway.
No one toys with you...& you won't deal with it.
Everything's still in tact & you don't even
have a scratch. WELL DONE! I'm impressed...
Will you survive a HORROR MOVIE??
brought to you by Quizilla
Go ME. TAKE THAT YOU SON OF A BITCH! |
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| 10:01am 04/11/2005 |
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Well, i'm going to have to admit. Tuesday was the best birthday i ever had. I don't think it could have gotten any better. After all the classes. My boyfriend took me out and just spending the time with him on the brithday was great. My roommate made me a really sweet card, telling me what a sister means to her, wishing me a happy b-day. I really enjoyed it all. Normaly i don't like my birthday, but this year was different. :) Thanx |
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| 02:46pm 02/11/2005 |
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Since no one ever ready this shit that i type up here...what the hell, why not...lol
Happy Birthday to ME! |
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| 01:59pm 20/10/2005 |
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I went to the doctors after Mike made me promise to him I'd go. He said it was because he cared about me and didn't want to see anything happen to me. SO i told him I'd go. The doctor poked around my ribs were i told him the pain was coming from. He proceeded in listening to my heart, and said my heart was strong and the reason i was feeling the sharp pains in my heart was because i had:
Costochondritis, also known as Tietze Syndrome, is the inflammation of the cartilage where the ribs attach to the breastbone (sternum).
(lol, i googled it)
The cause of the pain was because my rib cage, the cartilage part of it, was pressing into my heart when i inhaled. There‘s nothing he said they can do about it and that this may last many years. He told me when ever i feel the pain the only thing that i can take to help if is the over the counter drugs...a.k.a. for me alive.
I also got him to test my heart, which was free. They hooked my up to a machine that monitored my heart. He said my heart is healthy and strong, and that i am in really good shape considering the fact that i have Costochondritis.
So I‘mot going to Die any time soon...lol But thats the latest mom. |
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| 01:35pm 18/10/2005 |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARI FREDA.....
hope your day is gooooing GREAT. Luv ya like a sis
later |
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| 09:44pm 11/10/2005 |
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Things are much better now, i was just having one of them days. I realized that why should i worry about my problems, thinking that they were hard to overcome, when there are people out there who can make my issues look like a fly on the wall. So why should i complain for something that is only a small problem compared to someone with much bigger ones. There are people that have a reason to feel the way i did and i shouldn't have felt that way. If that makes any since.
But today is much better, i got home and its weird i can honestly feel like shit, but once i see Mike. I don't know a smile forms on my face and honestly its like whatever typ of shit i had gone through that day doesn't matter at that moment.
Mom called to day and the Dip shit is coming up i guess sometime this week to deliver something to me, and i'm honestl scared for my life. I don't think i could see him. I have to act like i really like him when he comes, and he puts on a face for all my friends and who ever else cares to listen. HE doesn't want to look like a fucking jack ass in front of people that might judge him, or something of that sort. ERRRRR! I just don't know wat i'm gunna do, i havn't got an e-mail from him and i didn't give him my cell phone number. So i don't know when hes coming up or i hes coming up, i mean if he doesn't i won't mind at all...lol. Not one bit.
But thats all the new shit i have.
Ponder this: * Why do they disinfect lethal injections? * |
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| 01:38am 09/10/2005 |
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Well i have to be up for band in 5 hrs. i just got back from going home, to see my grandpa. HEs dooing better, cranky like usual. Which is a ood thing if you didn't know. But here i am in m dorm, my roommates gone out, which is great cause she doesn't go out enough and have fun. Then theres me, I'm sitting here after finding out news that i never thought i'd hear in a life time. I'm crying, why i'm crying is beyond me. I mean i'm actually crying...
okay check my roomamte just walked in, drunk. Shes never drank before and i feel so bad, i can't take it. A girl from down the hall is actually here helping her out. I have to wake up now in 4 and a half hours. I'm guuna pull an all nighter, just omake sure she doesn't hurt herself or vomit in her sleep, cause i don't want anything to hapen to her.
Well i guess my story doesn't matter, theres so much more to the story, of the worst trip home that i had so far. IF only there was time to get if off my chest. But i need to go check my roommate...bye |
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| 05:32pm 03/10/2005 |
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Allison has this hanging on our door...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Wait for the guy who pursues you,
who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when youre in sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around the waist.
The one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.
aaawwwwwww............. |
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